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Mountain Longing: What's in a Name?

4/19/2014

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PictureMy ancestral Val Pellice in the Italian Alps.
To prepare for our first session at Stephen Jenkinson's Orphan Wisdom School, my class of scholars - as he calls us - was asked to reflect on the name bestowed upon our cohort: People of Mountain Longing. 

“Longing has the flavor of grief,” Jenkinson said at the workshop I attended at Marylhurst last Fall. To me, longing feels ancestral, something bequeathed to us, an embodied response to the full-hearted, broken-hearted condition of being alive. Paired with mountains – which cultures throughout time have seen as the meeting place of Earth and the heavens, a place where humans can communicate with their gods – mountain longing carries a sense of spiritual quest. At the same time, mountain conjures a physicality, a one-foot-in-front-of-the-other challenge, plodding at times but with the promise of elevation, freedom.

I don't yet know why this name was chosen for us. Perhaps it references the experience of those who came before us to this place in eastern Ontario: the Algonquin of Pikwàkanagàn First Nation. Their name means "[beautiful] hilly country [covered] in evergreens". According to their web site, archaeological evidence indicates Algonquins occupied the Ottawa Valley for at least the last 10,000 years. Stripped of every imaginable freedom to practice their culture, speak their language, and traverse the land upon which they had subsisted for those 10,000 years, a deep legacy of longing must permeate the community to which I prepare to travel. 

These speculations stirred reflections of my own, about my experience of mountains, of the people in my immediate lineage, or the loss and longing I carry.

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When I had the chance to choose a college, I picked one by a mountain, in Portland, Oregon – an hour from Mount Hood, an hour from the Pacific Ocean, a city dotted with extinct volcanoes. I had grown up in the harbor towns of New Haven and Honolulu. My mother saw to it that we camped in the mountains during our early years. Weekends during summer visitation in Hawaii, once my father had moved there with his girlfriend, included a hike in the mountains as often as a trip to a beach park. Reed College, besides being halfway between my two sets of parents (and 3,000 miles away from each), featured a freshman orientation backpacking trip on Mount Jefferson. Eager for a life unpopulated by my prep school classmates (not a single Hopkins graduate had ever enrolled at Reed) I knew who I wanted to claim as my people: backpackers. For my high school graduation my mother gifted me a frame pack and sleeping bag; my father, hiking boots. I spent that summer climbing the 29 flights of steps to my father’s Waikiki condo, the pack stuffed with laundry.

That first backpack trip confirmed my nascent longing for time in the mountains. Last year I took six backpacking trips into the Catalina Mountains of Southern Arizona and the Olympics and Cascades of the Pacific Northwest. This year I’ve been out twice; just this last weekend, a pilgrimage to the Chiracahua Mountains where the US Cavalry struggled for years to defeat the Apache.

PictureRifugio Willy Jervis memorializes my Grandfather's brother
More than anyone, my Nonna, my mother’s mother, put mountain longing in me.  She grew up in the Italian Piedmont, a region surrounded on three sides by the Alps. A tiny clan of Pre-Reformation Protestants whose cultural survival depended on the sanctuary of high places after being declared heretics by the Roman Catholic Church, the Waldensians arrived in Torre Pellice, what would become her hometown, in the early 13th century. Immense Roland family pride links us to Waldensian hero Henri Arnaud who led “the Glorious Return” to the valleys in 1689, in which two-thirds of a 1,000-strong band of exiles perished; the remaining 300 escaped slaughter by 4,000 amassed French troops under cover of a storm and, before the army could catch up with them, a change in political alliances. 

On my Nonno’s side, the Jervis family hadn’t been Italian for long. Immense family pride connects us to the British Admiral John Jervis, who imposed limes on the Navy, thereby curing scurvy and allowing Britain to rule the world’s seas. By the mid-nineteenth century with much of the family off colonizing India, teenaged Annie fell under the spell of the Garibaldi Freedom Fighters who were in England raising funds from the anti-Papist well-to-do for their Italian unification campaign. She ran off with one of them to Italy; the family jewels came too. The Freedom Fighter took the jewels and gave her syphilis in return. (My grandfather carried a childhood memory of visiting this blinded aunt in a ruined palazzo in Naples.) Her brother, my great-great-grandfather, sent to fetch her back, stayed to tend to the Garibaldi wounded and married a Waldensian woman.

Elena Roland and Ernesto Jervis conducted their courtship in the mountains, where their adolescent Waldensian group spent every opportunity outdoors, picnicking, climbing, hiking up with skiis on their backs and gliding down. The Jervis brothers embodied athleticism, adventure, escape from my grandmother’s strict Victorian father. Years later, she recounted these glory days on Mount Granero to me in great detail; she gave me her cool woolen ski pants which I wore to shreds in my twenties. 

When Mussolini declared Catholicism the official state religion and membership in the Fascist party was required for my grandfather to work as an engineer, they immigrated to the United States. I never heard Nonna express any yearning for the country of her birth – only those mountains. The mountain cost my Nonno's brother Willy his life: executed in the town square for aiding the Resistance with his mountaineering skills, a mountain refuge now bears his name. 

My Nonna embraced America wholeheartedly: a Protestant country, Roosevelt, the freedoms despite wartime restrictions and their limited finances, and – the mountains. They lived in eastern cities but she loved the Mountain West. When she visited me in Oregon she instructed me in how to walk down a steep grade – “You see, you place your foot like this” horizontally, across the mountain, “and now like this.” An adult backpacker by then, I humored her, not yet appreciating that even though I thought I didn’t need to learn this lesson, she had a strong need to impart it. 

When my Nonno died after ten years of cardiac and cognitive decline, I met Nonna back in Torre Pellice, her first return to her native land without her beloved husband and my first adult encounter with this ancestral place. We had planned for me to help her up to Mount Granero to spread his ashes. Before I arrived she got spooked about the legalities of transporting his remains. I found that she had already quietly mixed the ashes in with the soil of his mother’s grave while planting fresh begonias on it.

Of my father’s people, we know nothing beyond the assurance from his politically conservative, Southern Baptist sister that, “We’ve always been Americans” – but assuredly not “Native”. 

While there is much I don’t know about my people, I do know that I come from generation upon generation of emigrants. From the Waldensians fleeing persecution over high mountain passes to my maternal grandparents leaving Italy and never looking back; from my father leaving Charlotte, North Carolina to attend Andover and Harvard and never going back (his father was the traffic manager for a cotton broker and his mother cashiered at the A&P; their first car was a used one they bought to drive North to witness his graduation); to his moving from Connecticut to Hawaii six days after my parents’ divorce, and never coming back; to my own definitive departure from my mother’s home to the opposite coast at the age of 17.

“Longing is choosing,” I heard Jenkinson say last Fall. “Grief is the midwife that turns desire into longing.” In my 51 years I have known much of desire, and, increasingly, something of longing. I have some experience of grief, but more, a sense of carrying the grief of generations in my family, mute and inaccessible without the skills I seek to learn; of being surrounded by the unacknowledged grief of my culture, so desperately in need of the skills I long to embody and leave behind.

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Pat Parrish
4/20/2014 11:56:58 pm

Hollly, Small correction: my Daddy was the traffic manager for a cotton broker. His job was to keep up with the cotton from the field, to the baler, to the final customer. His job transferred he and Mother from Montgomery, Al. to Savannah, Ga. where Ken & I were born, to Charlotte, NC. Daddy never drove a truck. Love, Pat

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Holly
5/25/2015 10:15:34 pm

Thanks, Pat. I'm so glad to have that correction and to know this piece about my granddaddy Pruett.

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Shae Uisna
4/26/2014 11:28:31 am

As I read this, music from the film, "The Last of The Mohicans" builds to a crescendo in the lobby where I sit. So appropriate, as the soundtrack evokes images of majestic blue mountains and heart-breakingly beautiful landscapes. What marvelous stories you share of your generations of adventurers, joy intermingled with grief! Thank you Holly, for your eloquent sharing.

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